The Sisterhood Wound: Why You’re Afraid to Speak, Lead, or Shine

Why Women Stay Silent: The Hidden Wound No One Talks About

There’s a grief that lies in our bones, which we rarely name.

It’s the ache of betrayal without a blade. A silencing that doesn’t come from force, but from side-eyes, group chats, and a quiet withdrawal of warmth the moment you dare to become too much—too loud, too visible, too different.

This is the Sisterhood Wound.

And whether you were shamed by a friend for sharing too much, rejected by a group when you dared to lead, or quietly punished for shining brighter than what was “allowed,” this wound shapes more of our self-worth than we realize.

What Is the Sisterhood Wound?

The Sisterhood Wound is a collective trauma rooted in centuries of competition, scarcity, and betrayal among women and feminine beings. It shows up when:

    •    You hesitate to speak your truth in a group.

    •    You play small so others won’t feel uncomfortable.

    •    You avoid leadership to avoid being targeted.

    •    You distrust other women’s motives—especially in spiritual or professional circles.

    •    You shrink after being praised, fearing the backlash.

Historically, our power as women was dangerous. Over time, in countless ways, it was quietly targeted and diminished. To survive, women were often forced to betray each other. Think: witch trials, arranged marriages, inheritance laws, exclusion from education, etc. Survival meant loyalty to patriarchy over sisterhood. And despite our many advancements, that ancestral scar still echoes today. And if you are a man and you’re reading this, and identify with it, it’s likely because you carry a similar community wound. Sadly, these are far more common than we think. And they are important to recognize, name, and heal, because without doing so, they will hold you back and replay in different variants, over and over again in your life.

Personal Signs You’re Holding This Wound

    •    You second-guess yourself after sharing something vulnerable.

    •    You feel “energetically punished” when you set healthy boundaries.

    •    You fear being seen, even if you crave it.

    •    You’ve felt scapegoated in friend groups.

    •    You shrink your own magic and magnetism so others don’t feel insecure.

Let me say this clearly: none of this means you’re broken. It means your nervous system has learned to associate safety with invisibility—and that can be healed.

When This Wound Shows Up in Community

Recently, (story shared within the Sovereign Path Series), I witnessed this dynamic unfold in real time.

What began as a sacred space for growth and initiation slowly revealed fractures beneath the surface—moments where others bypassed hard truths, betrayed private trust, stood with a leader even if it went against their gut instincts, or quietly silenced one another’s voices.

Because when the Sisterhood Wound is active inside a community, it creates fertile ground for control, confusion, and silence.

Some of us questioned ourselves:

“Was I too much?”

“Did I misread the energy?”

“Is it safer to stay quiet than risk conflict?”

Others felt pressured to conform to the collective story, fearing exile if they dared to speak against it.

Why This Happens in Group Dynamics:

1. The Group Mindset - Why We Stay Quiet

When we sense conflict, exclusion, or betrayal within a group, most people don’t act from their highest selves - they act from survival. The nervous system reads rejection or confrontation as a threat. This triggers what psychologists call fawning (appeasing), freezing (shutting down), or mirroring (aligning with the dominant voice to avoid exile). And in spiritual spaces or other groups centered around healing, spirituality, or personal growth, where we expect safety and authenticity, this can often look like:

• Staying silent rather than risking being seen as “the problem”

• Siding with the most charismatic voice to avoid being targeted

• Self-betraying (“I’m fine, it’s fine”) while quietly collapsing inside

• Bypassing harm with “love and light” language (or other superficial stories of false community or celebration) to maintain the illusion of harmony

This isn’t weakness. It’s wiring.

Our ancestors learned that exile from the tribe meant death. And our nervous systems still carry that memory.

2. How Manipulators Exploit This Wound

Trust me when I say, a manipulative leader doesn’t always look like a tyrant or a readily visible person you can easily peg. More often than not, they appear supportive, magnetic, and benevolent on the surface. But underneath, they’re studying the group, sensing vulnerabilities, and using our longing to belong as leverage.

Some common tactics:

• Reframing Dissent as Betrayal -

Anyone who questions the narrative gets labeled as “negative”, “unspiritual”, simply “doesn’t understand”, or is “not in alignment”. This is intentional - it weaponizes the Sisterhood Wound - making others fear becoming the next exile. Healthy leaders aren’t afraid or threatened of respectful discord, curious exploration, or discussions that open a collective mindset or group perspective. They genuinely want to learn from each other, support each other, and support the greater good of the collective.

• Creating Conditional Safety

Approval, access, or visibility within the group is tied (usually subtly) to obedience. Those who comply are “chosen”, “seen”, or validated in some way. Those who challenge are usually subtly pulled out of positions of influence or iced over. If you are in a group with subtle or overt control dynamics, rethink the psychological health of that community. Healthy communities support your psychological safety - they encourage you to respectfully share opinions, questions, and wins. There is no hidden rivalry or competition.; they cultivate a culture of genuine camaraderie.

• Controlling the Story

When harm happens, the manipulator reframes it so they remain the benevolent guide and others are blamed, dismissed, or doubted. Or, other methods, such as triangulation is used to seed multiple storylines and create conflict and control through interpersonal dynamics. Over time, this erodes trust - but the illusion of harmony keeps people quiet. Respectful discord is healthy. Mature people understand that there will always be differences of opinion and that no one person is ever without error. A healthy leader understands the need to hold compassionate truth and to also let energy naturally ebb and flow. They cultivate a culture dynamic of openness, compassion, synergy, and respect. The human experience will never be perfect, nor will your spiritual path. And healthy leaders understand perfection and control are not the goal.

• Exploiting Spiritual Bypassing

You may hear phrases like “we’re all mirrors”, “you’re being triggered”, “this points to an unhealed wound”, “you’re being offered a lesson”, “don’t focus on negativity”, “we don’t need to go into the shadow - we’ve transcended that”, “focus on your higher timeline”, “this is sacred work -its not for everyone”, etc. Underneath all of it, the manipulator leverages one unspoken fear: “If you challenge me, you will lose your belonging.” And because the Sisterhood Wound (or some other community wound that you hold) already tells us “being seen isn’t safe”, we comply, collapse, or retreat - even when something feels deeply wrong on a subconscious level. Healthy leaders understand life is cyclical - we all have seasons that include challenges, lessons, and dark nights of the soul as well as beautiful seasons of abundance, flow, and ease. A good spiritual mentor is there to help guide you into sitting in your discomfort, unearthing what rises to be witnessed and healed, and helping to compassionately hold space and support you through that process.

3. Why We Turn On Ourselves Instead of Speaking Up

Here’s the deepest layer of psychology in all of this: When conflict or harm happens, we often self-betray before we challenge the group.

Why?

• Attachment>Authenticity

Our nervous system is wired to protect connection first. We would rather suppress our truth than to risk rejection.

• Inherited Scarcity

We’ve internalized the belief that safe, supportive, aligned communities are rare. We cling tightly to the one we have, even if it wounds us. Or, if we suffer from any kind of abandonment wound around community or “family”, this may show up in a similar fashion, as a fear and scarcity wound, if our sense of belonging is subconsciously threatened.

• Trauma Conditioning

Many of us grew up in dynamics where love was conditional - so we normalize subtle forms of manipulation, exclusion, or control.

• Ego + Self Protection

Sometimes we turn on ourselves instead of speaking up because our ego wants to protect us from feeling foolish. It whispers, “Don’t admit you were wrong, don’t show you were fooled.” At its root, ego is trauma-born - it once kept us safe when harm was very real. But left unchecked, integrated, and fully healed - what once protected us can now limit us. Because here’s the truth: admitting we were deceived isn’t weakness - it’s courage. Every time we choose honesty over ego, we reclaim our power, honor ourselves, and free ourselves to grow. True strength is choosing authenticity over ego, clarity over illusion, and ourselves always over any misplaced fear. Every time we do, we reclaim our own sovereign power and step into growth.

Sovereignty is the Antidote

But, while these moments were painful— they were also clarifying.

Because they exposed the trap of the Sisterhood Wound inside group spaces:

We silence ourselves to belong, then abandon ourselves in the process.

And this is wildly dangerous. And far more slippery and subtle than you might imagine.

The turning point comes when you name what is happening - inside and around you. You use your discernment and listen to your body’s whisper when something feels off or misaligned, you choose yourself and healthy boundaries, and you reclaim your sovereignty. Because these moments you experienced reveal where sovereignty begins:

not in controlling others,

not in bypassing discomfort,

but in choosing truth over belonging. Time and time again.

In recognizing that your belonging starts when you claim yourself - because your sovereignty is held within you - it is not held externally in someone else’s approval or control. True leadership, true sisterhood, true community - they never require bypassing your instincts or compromising your truth.

The gift of this ordeal is seeing, with clarity, the pattern for what it is. The Sisterhood Wound is not just your wound—it’s ours collectively. Naming it helps us stop internalizing the shame and start breaking the cycle together. It helps us to start recognizing this wound and taking action directly to heal it. And manipulation always loses its power when you step into sovereignty and clarity - because clarity cannot be controlled.

How This Wound Protects Itself

When unhealed, this wound tends to recycle through the same behaviors:

    •    Bypassing: Pretending harmony exists while ignoring harm.

    •    Betrayal: Sharing one story publicly, another behind closed doors.

    •    Silencing: Withdrawing connection when someone speaks a truth that’s uncomfortable.

These aren’t signs of weakness. They’re survival strategies rooted in centuries of fear.

But sovereignty asks us to pause, name them, and choose a new response.

Moving Through the Ordeal

Healing this wound isn’t about going back to how things were before. It’s about stepping into a deeper truth:

    •    That you don’t have to dim your light to belong.

    •    That your voice is not a threat—it’s medicine. And you are meant to speak it boldly.

    •    That healthy boundaries and clarity create more real connection, not less.

This is the work of sovereignty:

Choosing authenticity over acceptance.

Choosing discernment over illusion.

Choosing your soul’s truth even when it costs you temporary belonging.

Why Healing This Wound Matters

This isn’t just about friendship.

Healing the Sisterhood Wound is what frees your voice, ignites your leadership, and unlocks your legacy. Because if you’re still afraid to shine in front of women - or any group or community, you’ll subconsciously sabotage your own success.

Until you repair this fracture, you may:

    •    Resist mentorship or community.

    •    Avoid collaborations out of mistrust.

    •    Stay small to avoid being resented.

• Avoid opportunities out of fear of being misunderstood.

• Avoid true intimacy and connection with others.

This is not your fault. But it is yours to shift.

Re-Parenting the Sisterhood Wound

You don’t need to wait for an apology or the perfect circle to begin healing. You can become your own safe witness.

Here are a few sacred self-repair tools:

1. Name the First Memory

Close your eyes and reflect. When was the first time another girl or woman made you feel “too much”? Name her. Name the moment. And speak this aloud:

“You didn’t know how to hold my light. That wasn’t my fault. I release all judgement around this and reclaim my power.”

2. Daily Nervous System Affirmation

Say this to yourself as you prepare to speak, post, or lead:

“It’s safe to be seen. It’s safe to be powerful. I choose love over fear, truth over silence.”

3. Mirror Practice

Look yourself in the eye and say:

“I trust you to speak boldly and speak the truth. You are always safe. I have your back.”

Journal Prompts for Integration

    •    When have I silenced myself to keep the peace? What did that cost me?

    •    Who did I give my power to, and why?

• Where have I traded authenticity for belonging?

    •    What am I most afraid will happen if I let myself shine fully?

    •    Where do I still crave approval or validation from others?

    •    What kind of sisterhood feels safe, sacred, and aligned for me now?

You are not alone in this ache. What you’ve carried is part of a much larger story - one woven through generations of women taught to compete, conform, survive, and stay small. But this is the turning point. Every time you speak your truth, choose your voice, and take up space, you break the old spell and create a new possibility for all of us.

Your Light Is a Catalyst, Not a Threat

Your voice, your vision, your visibility—they’re not betrayals of the collective. They’re medicine. They’re invitations for others to rise.

The Sisterhood Wound taught us to fear each other. It embedded this fear.

But your healing teaches you to belong to yourself—and in doing so, to also belong to others who are ready to love you without condition or control.

It’s time to befriend your own brilliance.

To boldly speak the truth.

To shine unabashedly.

To lead with integrity, radiance, and grounded humility.

Together we do this.

Not with fake and ill supported threads, but with hand and soul bounded celebration - holding and uplifting each other.

Because as one of us heals and shines, we encourage our sister next to us, to do the same.

And together, that is how we support healing and true change.

I’ve felt the sting of this wound myself - many times in my life and often wondered where its root was held. I’ve sat in many circles where I wanted so badly to belong, only to feel invisible, dismissed, or even subtly undermined. I used to think the problem was me. But over time, I realized these patterns weren’t about my worth - or even about my confidence - they were reflections of pain passed down through generations of women, pain that taught us to compete instead of trust.

The real work begins when we name it. When we remember that we are not each other’s enemies. When we choose to rise above old scripts and instead build spaces rooted in trust, encouragement, and sovereignty.

If you’ve carried this wound also, I invite you to pause and reflect: Where have I silenced myself in order to belong? And what would it feel like to stand in my own truth anyway?

Because this is how the Sisterhood Wound begins to heal - one voice, one truth, one act of courage at a time.

When the Skin Speaks: Eczema, Mars in Leo, Saturn in Aries, & The Body’s Call To Move

Note: This post is a little more personal than usual, but I feel like this is an important part of my Chiron Return journey and I promised to share as I grow this year. If you are navigating skin or body issues, shame or frustration with slow healing, I hope this post brings you encouragement and grounding.

I find the whispers of our body to be an uncannily insightful gift in so many different ways.

But, I will be honest, I didn’t expect a small patch of eczema to become the random mouthpiece for my soul.

It showed up one morning out of the blue on my right calf - red, inflamed, and oddly fierce. Intense itching. At first, I treated it like a minor inconvenience. Baffled by what may have caused it but thought perhaps I had somehow brushed against poison oak and hadn’t realized it - and mentally brushed it off. A pattern I often do….subtly dismissing my body’s whispers. But, as the days passed and nothing seemed to calm it down, I began to soften, quiet my mind - and listen.

And what I finally heard changed everything.

The Body Always Speaks First

I’ve spent years unearthing my wounds. I know how to track trauma, decode patterns, map astrology, and follow the breadcrumbs of ancestral pain and wounding.

But this was different.

This time, my body was telling me the truth faster than I could process it.

Not gently. Not quietly.

It was itchy. Inflamed. Angry. Raw.

Like some part of me had finally had enough of being held back, silenced, polished, and composed.

This wasn’t just a first breakout of eczema.

This was a flare-up of suppressed fire.

The Astrology Behind the Flare

When the eczema first appeared, Mars had just entered Leo - my 1st house of identity, body, and selfhood. The house of physicality and raw self-expression.

Mars is movement, will, rage, and desire.

Leo is visibility, radiance, deep self love, and self-expression.

It was activating my Leo Rising - also a leg of my natal yod pattern - and, energetically speaking, it was lighting a match.

At the same time, Saturn was transiting over my natal Sun in Aries - opposing my natal Pluto and activating a square to my natal Saturn and Mars in Cancer in the 12th house. And, simultaneously, my Chiron Return was also beginning - square to that same Saturn. And square to my natal Moon in Capricorn.

If that all sounds intense- it was.

A grand cross of pressure.

A karmic reckoning.

A soul initiation coded in inflammation.

Because here’s the truth:

You can’t keep moving forward in your purpose if your body is still wired to believe it’s not safe to be seen.

Saturn was saying: Refine your identity. Mature your truth.

Mars was saying: Move. Burn. Become. Shed the patterns you have outgrown and hold you back.

And my nervous system? It was still holding onto decades of frozen, deeply embedded survival strategies.

That eczema patch was a flare-up of trapped fire, trying to escape.

Why My Body Reacted: The Ancestral Freeze Pattern

Eczema isn’t random. It’s heat without a home.

And it often appears where the soul is trying to evolve, but the body hasn’t caught up yet.

I carry a legacy of silence.

Of women who smiled instead of screamed.

Who braced instead of ran.

Who mothered, mended, and made do - while their own bodies slowly stiffened with unspoken pain. Lost dreams. Emotional suppression. Forgotten worth.

Mars and Saturn in Cancer in my 12th House = inherited emotional armor.

It taught me at a very young age to read a room - to hold it all together, protect everyone else, and to never make a scene.

But now? With Mars roaring through Leo and Chiron flaring in Aries?

My body broke rank.

It finally broke through and said: No more false safety. No survival-first any longer. No more silence or self-subjugation.

The skin opened. The truth escaped.

It forced me to stop and see the deeper message…and, the pattern.

The Calf & The Right Side: The Sacred Symbolism

Eczema on my right calf wasn’t random.

The right side of the body holds masculine energy: action, visibility, forward motion.

The calf is about momentum - it is one of the muscles that helps us to walk, run, move.

And the skin? It is our boundary - the line between inside and out, between self and the world. Not surprising, it is ruled by Saturn.

So when my soul said: Go.

My nervous system still sat in its protective armor and said: Wait. It’s not safe yet. I’m not ready to be seen; it still doesn’t feel safe.

My body said: This won’t work. There’s an energetic mismatch and you aren’t living in your full truth and purpose.

And, ultimately, it expressed the fire that desired to help push me forward on my path, somatically….and I developed eczema.

Not because my body is failing.

But because my body was the only one in the room telling the truth.

Putting it all together?

My body was saying: You want to move forward, but something inside you still feels unsafe to be seen.

You’re trying to shed your old identity, but you’re still wrapped in ancestral armor. It’s time to trust and surrender - heal and grow.

You would have to see my whole chart to see how very deeply this resonated with me at my core.

The Fire That Has No Place To Go

This was rage I hadn’t named.

Desire I hadn’t owned.

Visibility I hadn’t allowed.

It wasn’t mental. It was cellular.

My body had become a containment field for every time I had wanted to say:

• I’m not ok.

• This isn’t working.

• I want more.

• What legacy am I building towards?

Instead of screaming, I smiled. Instead of changing deep course, I simply worked harder.

Instead of moving, I continued to give to others. I managed. I accepted. I dissociated.

Ultimately, I did what I often do best - I ignored. I dismissed the many whispers that had come before this.

Until my skin couldn’t hold the contradiction anymore.

The Ritual That Changed Everything

I stopped running a few months ago - because of time, weather, and truthfully, a lack of prioritizing myself.

But when I pieced this all together, I heard the message very clearly:

You need to move. You need to burn clean. You need to reclaim motion as medicine.

So, I started running again - not as punishment, but as ritual.

Because the only way to clear - to truly move the element of fire - is to physically move the energy.

Each morning, I now:

• Touch my right calf and say: I hear you. I’m listening and I am ready.

• Run to mantras like “I am fire”, “I am free”, “I am safe to be fully me”

Each day I chose to run was a reclamation.

Not just of my health - but of my voice, my will, my radiance, and my right to be here in full, unapologetic flame.

A New Kind of Healing

After each run, I’d anoint my leg with a sacred oil blend that I made - blue tansy for soothing fire, rose for softness, frankincense for identity reclamation.

I’d breathe. I’d listen. I’d stop forcing.

And slowly…my body stopped bracing.

My skin began to soften.

The fire became less itchy. Less inflamed. More integrated. Until finally, it healed in full.

And the changes that stirred? Not only did the eczema soften, but so did my inner landscape.

I began to embody what my soul had been calling me towards.

Reflections: What I’ve Learned

• That my quick mental processing while a gift, also creates a subconscious disconnect allowing me to intellectually grasp things quickly while also bypassing the emotional embodiment of my experiences - subconsciously feeding into a deeply embedded and ancestral pattern of emotional suppression. Reminding me that quick understanding is not the same as deep embodiment.

• That my skin is not betraying me - it’s translating my truth; that my body is speaking to me. I simply have to be present and take intentional time each day, to listen to it.

• That movement, when rooted in presence, is sacred.

This healing journey isn’t about fixing a skin condition.

Or, about being concerned with another autoimmune disease.

This isn’t just about eczema.

This is about what happens when your body is finally safe enough to speak and be witnessed.

And it has tested me, subtly, to see if I am truly listening.

It’s ultimately a reminder about the importance of presence, embodiment, and listening to my body.

It’s about learning to trust the fire in my body again. To trust and honor my feelings -and my soul.

To learn to let Mars move through me - not burn beneath me.

Sometimes the healing begins not when you apply the cream, but when you stop apologizing for your fire.

Your Invitation

If you’ve been dealing with strange symptoms - skin flares, fatigue, emotional spikes, or other body blockages - ask yourself:

• Where am I holding back my truth?

• What truth is trying to surface?

• What motion have I stopped out of fear?

• What fire have I silenced?

Your body isn’t resisting you.

It’s speaking to you.

You are not broken.

You are just becoming too real to stay inside of the old armor.

You are being called to release and outgrow old patterns.

You are being asked to surrender, trust, and step into new growth.

And when you start moving from soul, and shifting out of survival -

You don’t just heal your skin.

You reclaim your radiance.