Sovereign Path Series: Part 6. Final Initiation - Reclaiming Inner Authority

How I stopped searching for the missing piece - because I remembered it was me.

There is a moment after the spell breaks,
after the cords are cut,
after the teacher is unmasked and the temple falls.

And in that silence —
where the glamour has lifted but the grief still hums —
you realize:

Naming the distortion isn’t the finale.
It’s the threshold.

Because the truth is, it was never just about them.

It was about the parts of you that still believed you needed to be led.
It was about the buried desire to be seen, to belong.

That’s what gets used.

And that’s what you’re here to reclaim.

I wasn’t weak.
I wasn’t co-dependent.

I was wired for sacred connection.

In Human Design, about half of us have something called split definition —
a design where your energy flows in two distinct circuits, without an internal bridge.

And when you carry this but aren’t aware, it can create a subtle but persistent longing for coherence.

You may feel mostly whole, mostly clear, mostly aligned —
but something’s always a little…separate.
Like two inner voices speaking slightly out of rhythm.

As if your inner knowing whispers instead of roars.
A chronic sense of incompleteness you just can’t name.

But when you meet someone whose energy bridges that internal divide?

Suddenly there’s clarity. Ease. Relief.

You feel radiant. Empowered. At home.

Your knowing sharpens. Your voice strengthens.

It feels like recognition — as if you’re finally whole and seen.
It can even feel like soul truth.

It can feel like coming home.

That’s the beauty of split definition: we are built for resonance.

Designed for synergy.
For mutual reflection.
For sacred circuitry with others.

And when it’s healthy — mutual, conscious, and clean — it’s almost magickal.

You expand in another’s presence not because they complete you,
but because they meet you —
and your energy finds a rhythm it couldn’t access alone.

That kind of bonding isn’t weakness.
It’s sacred architecture.

But that same beauty that makes us magnetic…
also makes us vulnerable.

Because when we don’t understand how our system works,
we start chasing bridges.

We seek that feeling of wholeness in others —
especially those who appear powerful, illuminated, spiritually aligned.

And sometimes this chase comes at the cost of our own truth.

Because it is our softest longings that can be most easily exploited.

This isn’t hypothetical.
And it wasn’t random.

It was engineered.

The person who manipulated me — and many others — pulled our Human Design charts early on.

She knew who had emotional centers.
She knew who had undefined egos.
She knew who had split definitions.

And she used it.

Not always consciously, perhaps —
but instinctively.

She targeted the seekers who were more likely to doubt themselves.

The sensitives. The empaths.
The ones craving resonance, answers, clarity.

She knew where the open doors were — because she had the map.

And this is how energetic manipulation works.

There are people who study energetic systems like Human Design, Astrology, Gene Keys, and subtle body mechanics —
not to liberate, but to control.

They observe what soothes your system.
They track what sharpens your knowing.
And then they mimic it.

They reflect your language, your gifts, your longings —
and use it to craft a false resonance.

Sometimes they even mimic the energetic bridge you’ve experienced with someone else —
a partner, a friend, a guide —
so your nervous system anchors into a familiarity that feels like soul truth.

But this isn’t the real thing.

And on some level, it always feels off —
incomplete, subtly dissonant.

But, it is familiar enough that you start to doubt your real connections.
And fall for the ones wearing a mirror as a mask.

You think: I feel whole again.

But what’s actually happening is energetic co-opting.



What is Energetic Co-opting?

It’s a form of spiritual manipulation where someone uses your own energy to:
• Build their authority
• Create dependency
• Sustain your attachment to them

In other words: this isn’t mutual.

They aren’t offering you their wholeness.
They’re reflecting yours — and performing it back to you like a costume.

And it works. Because it feels good.

It feels like clarity. Like safety. Like home.

But underneath?

It’s glamour.
It’s a performance.
It’s borrowed light.



What she didn’t count on was this:

We would learn to read our own maps, too.

And once we did,
we could lock every door she once walked through.



Because understanding your vulnerability is not weakness.

It’s your weapon.

Here’s what no one tells you:

You don’t overcome manipulation by hardening.
You overcome it by becoming more intimate with your own design
than any predator could ever be.

You learn your patterns.
You name your longings.
You witness the exact moments when you’re most likely to give your power away.

And then you bless those parts.
You hold them close.
You let them speak.

That is how you reclaim yourself.



It’s Not Just Split Definitions At Risk.

Open centers. Undefined egos. Sensitive emotional systems.

These are places of deep brilliance — but also permeability.

If you don’t know where you’re energetically open,
someone else can learn it before you do —
and slip in like they belong there.

That’s how it happens:

You mistake relief for truth.
You mistake intensity for intimacy.
You mistake energy that feels good for energy that is good.

And once someone is using your own system to bind you to them,
it becomes harder and harder to leave.

Because leaving feels like losing the bridge all over again.



Here’s the Truth That Breaks the Spell:

You don’t need anyone to complete your circuit.
You don’t need a bridge to be whole.
You don’t need to be mirrored to trust your reflection.

And once I understood that — truly embodied it — everything changed.

I stopped handing over my clarity for confirmation.
I stopped waiting for someone to validate what I already knew.

I stopped outsourcing my wholeness — because it was never lost.
I had just scattered it into people I hadn’t learned to trust myself without.

I became present. Rooted.
I tapped back into my own rhythm.

And I took my power back.



This Isn’t About Self-Containment.

It’s about self-intimacy.

Whether you’re split or single definition,
defined or open —
the message is the same:

Know yourself more deeply than anyone else ever could.

Know your gifts.
Know your thresholds.
Know how your body says yes.
And how it contracts into no.

Because when you understand your own energy this intimately,
no one can mimic it convincingly again.

No voice, no glamour, no illusion can override your inner signal.



We all have soft spots.
But soft doesn’t mean unprotected.

It means sacred.

And when you tend those places with reverence,
they stop being weaknesses.

They become your crown.

Because you stop seeking completion in others,
and start honoring the radiant complexity already within you.

So the next time?

You’ll feel the mismatch before the mask even settles.
You’ll sense the performance before the betrayal.
You’ll walk away before the spell can land.

You won’t have to fight.
You won’t need proof.
You’ll just know.

This isn’t mine.

And that will be enough.



Tips:
• Look up your Human Design definition. Learn how your system processes energy in relationships.
• Ask: Who makes me feel clear or sure? Is that clarity mine, or is it borrowed?
• When you feel uncertain, sit with your body. Ask: What part of me wants to hand over my knowing right now? And what does she need instead?
Then speak it aloud — even if no one hears. Especially then.



Journal Reflections:
• What part of me still hopes someone else can “make it make sense”?
• Where do I hand over my knowing for external clarity?
• When have I mistaken energetic relief for true resonance?
• What does it feel like to anchor into clarity without needing to be mirrored?



And here it is:

You were never broken.
You were never meant to be completed.
You were designed to respond to others —
but not to dissolve inside them.

You were made to be amplified —
not absorbed.

So yes, honor your sensitivity.
Celebrate your openness.
Reclaim your circuitry.

But do it on your own terms.

Because you are the origin.

You hold your own bridge now.

And anyone who tries to use your light without permission?

Will find it unreachable.



This is the final initiation.

The moment you stop giving your power away —
because you remember:

It was always yours.

You are already whole.
You always were.

And that’s what they didn’t count on.

And that’s why they lost.

Sovereign Path Series: Part 5. Discernment Is the Gateway to Sovereignty

There’s a moment on the healing path - one that feels less like liberation and more like psychic surgery - where you realize:

Not everything that glitters is gold.

Not everyone who holds space is clean.

And not every woman in your circle is your sister.

Discernment is the fire that rises when the soul says:

No more pretending not to see.

Discernment Isn’t Judgement. It’s Protection.

Let’s clear something up:

We’ve been conditioned - especially as spiritual women - to blur the lines between discernment and judgement.

Having a boundary is being called “closed”, “pushy”, or “b$tchy”.

To notice and call out a distortion is seen as “projecting”.

To walk away from someone misusing power is labeled as “unhealed”.

But here is the truth:

Discernment is your body knowing before your mind does.

It’s the quiet voice inside you saying “this doesn’t feel right” before the betrayal fully reveals itself.

It is your innate gift - and the most underdeveloped tool in many spiritual circles because of groupthink, sisterhood glamours, childhood conditioning & conservative stereotypes, and bypass culture, that teach us to override it.

How I Lost & Reclaimed My Discernment

I once sat in circle with women I loved - women I learned, shared, and felt community with.

I felt the power. I felt the connection.

But somewhere along the way, I started to doubt what I felt in my gut.

I overrode the red flags in favor of spiritual ideals, community belonging, and a sense of being “relatable” and “kind”.

I called it “giving grace”, giving the “benefit of the doubt”, being “nonjudgemental”. I called it “unconditional sisterly love”.

I called it many things.

But deep down? I was really just abandoning myself.

And when the veil dropped - when I saw the manipulation, the subtle power plays, the very real maliciousness that lie underneath the sweet exterior and smile, and the cloaked control -

I realized I wasn’t crazy.

I was trained to suppress and dismiss my discernment in order to belong.

That is not sisterhood. It is not community. That’s spiritual submission.

And, like it or not, some people exploit and prey upon this sisterhood wound, because it is far more common than you’d like to think.

5 Discernment Keys for the Sovereign Path

If you are building sovereignty for yourself - a path for yourself rooted in truth, clarity, and sacred leadership - you need to hear this.

Here are the five keys I’ve learned through the fire:

1. Watch the Energy, Not the Words

   Spiritual distortion is often dressed in poetic language and polished “light”.

   It tells you want you want to hear - but leaves your body feeling tight, drained, or confused.

   Discernment isn’t about doubting what is said - it’s about reading what’s underneath.

   The energy never lies. Learn to trust what you feel.

2. Your Body is the Oracle

   Tension in your gut? Heart constriction? Throat tingling or tightening? Head fog around someone?

   That sudden headache after a Zoom circle?

   The nervous system spike when they compliment you?

   The subtle withdrawal that you feel when they enter a room?

   These are just a few of the somatic signals your body may send you to pay attention to a dissonance in energy.

   It is not your trauma speaking. It is not paranoia.

   It’s perception.

   Or in other words, it is your discernment radar lighting up. And it is screaming for your attention.

   Your body is the most accurate lie detector you will ever meet - if you’re willing to stop overriding it.

   You may hear this a thousand times, but it’s worth bears hearing again - the more you yield to listening to your body - taking that sacred pause to get really present with yourself and attune to it’s message - to really learn to trust yourself - the more this gift will strengthen and surprise you. It is like a muscle - the more you use it and learn to rely upon it, the stronger and more reliable it becomes.

3. What Happens When You Say No?

   Healthy people honor boundaries. Distorted ones punish them.

   If someone shifts when you say no - pouts, withdraws, criticizes, or reframes your truth as a “shadow”. Or, in any other way violates or tries to push back a strong boundary you hold in your life - you’re being shown something.

   Discernment asks: Is this dynamic safe and honoring for my no? In my gut, am I truly okay with this?

   If not - it’s not sovereign.

4. Look for Emotional Transactionalism

   Does support only come when you’re useful?

   Do you feel obligated to offer energy just to be seen or stay “in” the group?

   Are you giving more than you’re receiving - energetically or emotionally; or even in your time, services, and generosity - but gaslit into calling it “service”?

   Is generosity always repaid in visibility, loyalty, or gossip protection?

   That’s not love. That’s energetic debt disguised as “community”.

   Check the scales - and don’t dismiss them. Truth and true healthy relationship are balanced and reciprocal.

   Sovereign bonds don’t require emotional payments to stay valid.

5. If It Can’t Withstand Truth, It Wasn’t Real

   Can you ask hard questions without being shamed or dismissed?

   Can you name what you feel without being flipped into the role of the wounded one?

   Can you speak your truth without someone rushing to silence you in the name of “unity” or some other covert cause?

   Are criticism or questions met with victimhood or truth?

   If a bond only works when you stay small, silent, or continue to self-sacrifice -

   you’re not in sacred space - you’re in a controlled one.

   Discernment reveals the difference between true sisterhood and community - and energetic submission.

   And while you may think this is radically obvious - it can often be much more subtle on the surface than you might think.

   Discernment will help you spot this no matter how small the dissonant frequency is.

Discernment isn’t a weapon.

It is the boundary your soul sets to protect your becoming.

If someone calls that a threat,

they were never aligned with your truth -

only your compliance.

Let this be a gift you protect, honor, and stay highly attuned with. How others receive you and honor this part of you back, speaks volumes energetically.

Inner Reflection:

Take a breath and ask yourself:

• Where am I still betraying my body’s knowing in exchange for connection?

• What truths am I avoiding because I’m afraid of what they’ll cost me?

• Where do I rely on my intellect and logic instead of my own inner knowing?

• Where do I let my ego hold me back or override my intuition and discernment? Am I okay with acknowledging I may be wrong? If not, what lies underneath that?

• What would it mean - what would it really look like - to let discernment lead in my life?

• How can I better honor more pause, presence, and discernment in my life and allow this gift to strengthen?

These aren’t easy questions - but they are the ones that will set you free.

How To Rewire Your System To Feel Truth Again After Spiritual Betrayal

Most people teach discernment like it’s a checklist or a mental muscle.

But if you’ve ever said, “I knew something was off - but I stayed anyway.”

then you’ve already discovered the truth no one tells you:

Your ability to discern truth has nothing to do with your mind.

It isn’t intellectual - It’s energetic. Its cellular.

And it lives in your nervous system, your trauma imprints, your ancestral memory, your fascia, and your subtle body.

And, when you’ve been glamoured, gaslit, or groomed in a spiritual space, your frequency gets hijacked. Your field gets crosswired. Your body begins to associate control with safety…and sometimes, safety with love.

Here are 5 steps that will help heal your instrument so that you can get your signal back - so you can feel what’s true again and learn to trust yourself.

Not in theory. Not intellectually. But, in your body - your gut, your breath, and your bones.

Step 1: Understand How Energetic Hijacking Works

When you join a group or teacher with manipulative structures, several things often happen:

• You get slowly conditioned to override your instincts: you abandon your no to stay included, you confuse intensity with intimacy, you mistake nervous system regulation for truth.

• You disconnect from gut-level knowing (HPA axis and vagus nerve dysregulation)

• You begin deferring to external cues (mirroring the group, fawning, over-attuning)

• Your energy field contracts or expands incoherently (a key insight of glamour or charisma abuse)

• Your subtle body becomes confused. Your energetic body starts mistaking nervous system regulation for safety- and safety for love. But these are not interchangeable. This confusion is how illusion enters. In other words, when trauma patterns are reinforced, your system may confuse calm for truth, control for safety, and approval for love.

Your discernment didn’t vanish. It was just overwritten.

Your signal became scrambled.

Step 2: Regulate to Reconnect; Regulation is the Portal, Not The Proof

You can’t discern truth in a dysregulated state. Your body has to feel safe enough to access truth.

Most people are trying to “tune in” while dissociated, anxious, or over-attuned to predators.

But here’s the catch: you can feel calm and still be in danger.

It’s possible to feel held and harmed at the same time. Many systems offer a sense of regulation - but if it’s paired with disempowerment or distortion, that “peace” is a performance:

• Trauma bonded dynamics often regulate your nervous system just enough to keep you hooked - while bypassing the deeper dissonance in your soul. It feels calm, but it costs you clarity.

• Some spiritual spaces soothe the parts of you that crave belonging….while subtly asking you to betray the parts of you that carry truth. That betrayal isn’t loud - its slow erosion.

• Some spaces offer you comfort - but only if you abandon your core self to receive it. The nervous system calms while the soul withers. That’s not safety. That’s seduction. That’s often how cultic spaces work.

Real discernment begins when your nervous system no longer needs to belong in order to survive.

Step 3. Detox the Energetic Bond That’s Not Yours

Even after leaving a spiritual group, remnants often linger:

• Cord entanglements

• Thoughtforms looping in your head

• Guilt tied to breaking silent contracts

• Chakra distortion or entanglement (especially crown, solar plexus, and sacral)

• Somatic patterning of fawning or compliance

Ground yourself daily. Call back your energy. Cord cut - as often as needed.

Step 4: Rebuild Self-Trust (Your Inner Oracle) with Pattern Recognition

Betrayal often installs shame: How did I not see it?

Most people understand the need to “trust themselves” again after betrayal and try to do so - but trust isn’t a decision. It is a pattern recognition system.

The antidote isn’t hypervigilance - it’s pattern tracking over time. So that next time you understand what to look for and help prep your body to wire to the clues.

Tool: The Pattern Map Journal

Track the moments when you:

• Overrode your gut (that constriction you felt) and said yes….and why

• Betrayed your knowing to stay included

• Silenced yourself to be “spiritual”

• Ignored body signals in favor of approval

• Places where you confused resonance with recognition of an old wound

And then, write the reversal:

Next time I feel ______ I will ______.

You’re not shaming yourself - you’re updating your system.

You’re training your field to follow truth instead of trauma.

Step 5: Energetic Discernment Is Devotion - Not Division

One of the most damaging distortions is the idea of discernment becoming weaponized in some spiritual spaces:

• You’re projecting.

• You’re not trusting.

• You’re in ego.

• That’s just your trauma talking.

This is spiritual gaslighting.

Because here’s the truth:

Judgement divides. Discernment refines. And refinement is a sacred act of devotion to truth.

And truth is the goal. The real medicine is learning that discernment is sacred.

It’s the root of spiritual maturity.

It’s not about deciding who is “bad”.

It’s about tending to the truth within you like a holy fire. And learning to tune and protect your field and body so that you are not able to be glamoured again.

It’s about never ever again self-abandoning.

You don’t need to judge others.

You need to become the clearest frequency in the room. Boldy yet humbly confident and certain of yourself.

You were never meant to follow.

You were meant to feel.

And once you trust your own frequency again, you become unglamourable.

Every time you choose truth over performance, clarity over charisma, soul over any tether to belonging - you reclaim your inner temple.

The teacher you were seeking? The one you thought abandoned you?

She has always been there. Curled up inside your chest and waiting for you to return.

The Gift Of Aligning With Discernment

Discernment is sacred. It is not cold. It is not cruel. It is not too pushy.

It is a flame.

And the more you feed it, the more your field

becomes a temple

that only truth may enter.

And if you choose to align your life - your deepest inner self - with truth,

you will see abundance, joy, and fulfillment in levels. you could only dream of for yourself.

If you’ve ever doubted yourself - I see you.

If you’ve been gaslit in the name of spiritual “hierarchy” - I believe you.

And, if you’re walking away from a situation or community that is tough to say goodbye to, to honor your own discernment - know, that I see and honor your self-love and courage.

Let this be your line in the sand.

This Is the Sovereign Path

To walk the Sovereign Path is to choose truth over comfort.

It is to stop outsourcing your own inner knowing to teachers, lovers, friends, or groups.

It is to reclaim the original oath you made with your own soul - that you would never abandon her again.

Sovereignty means you are the final authority in your own field.

It means your no is sacred, your yes is embodied, and your silence is never for someone else’s comfort.

This post is part of my Sovereign Path Series - a collection of posts to support those waking up from distortion and stepping into clean power.

If you have ever doubted your intuition or stayed too long in a space that drained you - this is your permission to burn the script and begin again.

More empowered. More Attuned.

More in alignment than ever before to claim the path before you that was always yours, waiting and ready for you to finally walk away from all the distractions and wounds that held you back- and embrace your future ahead with clarity, courage, and sovereignty.

With So Much Love,

Seraph

The Sovereign Path - Part 4. Beneath the Glamour: Black Magick - The Invisible Hand That Binds

In full disclaimer, I do not practice black magick. Until a few weeks ago, I couldn’t tell you the first thing about it. But, what has unfolded in the past few weeks has forced me into a very steep education and I’ve been shown about various elements at play. This post is written to cast a light on what was hidden - and through truth and awareness, offer a path back to your power and purpose.

Black magick doesn’t always wear a hooded cloak or cackle in the dark. Sometimes it smiles sweetly and tells you it’s here to help. Sometimes it builds community. Sometimes it hands you a mirror, only to hijack what you see in it.

This post is for anyone who has ever felt “off”, foggy, disoriented, or disempowered in a spiritual space that they once trusted. If you’ve ever questioned your instincts, ignored red flags, or felt bound to a person or teacher beyond reason - you’re not crazy. You may have been caught in an energetic web of manipulation.

If that’s you - this post is your lifeline.

Because I see you.

I’ve been you.

And its time to break the spell.

Why This Matters

The spiritual world is full of beauty and healing - but as with anything, duality is also at play, and it is also full of shadow.

Not because spirituality in itself is dangerous, but because anything powerful can be inverted.

Light attracts moths and predators.

And, if you’ve ever felt spiritually hijacked - bound to someone or something in the distorted name of “love” or “truth” - you know exactly what I’m taking about.

This post is not intended to scare you.

It’s to educate you, protect you, and ultimately help you reclaim your soul authority.

This is the post you didn’t know you needed - the one that makes you whisper “OMG, this is what happened to me”, and then helps you rise out of it, sovereign and whole.

What is Black Magick- Really?

At its core, black magick is the willful manipulation of energy, perception, or spiritual laws in order to bypass free will, control another’s path, or extract power for personal gain. It operates through distortion. Through coercion. Through theft of sovereignty.

It thrives in ambiguity, false compassion, and spiritual bypassing.

It may masquerade as guidance or healing. It may wear the mask of a teacher, It may speak the language of love, awakening, or truth.

But, at its root, black magick is inversion. Inversion is the act of turning something sacred inside out and using it as a tool of control:

• Truth becomes gaslighting

• Love becomes control

• Devotion becomes enslavement

• Initiation becomes trauma bonding

• Reflection becomes projection

• Service becomes sacrifice

It ultimately uses your goodness against you. Your empathy becomes a leash. Your desire to grow becomes entrapment. Your silence becomes consent.

It is not karmic. It is not shadow work. It is domination, carefully crafted manipulation, and it is a dangerous, parasitic theft.

And in my opinion, it’s critical to name it for what it is. Because trying to rationalize everything as “neutral” or part of the lesson” helps no one.

Black magick will never be neutralized with neutrality. Its goal is not healing. Its goal is dominion.

This is not the path of healing or shadow integration - it is the unhealed shadow acting through you, driven by the desire to possess and control.

Qlipothic Distortion & Misuse of Shadow

Let me be clear:

The Qlipoth itself is not evil.

The Qlipoth - also called the Tree of Death or the Shadow Tree - is a real, profound mystical system.

It’s a symbolic map of the psyche’s descent - into shadow, fragmentation, and the exiled parts the self.

When approached with reverence and integrity, it can lead to profound healing, transformation, and power reclamation.

A way to integrate what was once denied.

To reclaim personal sovereignty - not to steal anyone else’s.

But like any potent system, it can be distorted.

And when it is no longer used for self-integration- but instead for manipulation - that is how it gets twisted into a tool of control. And why it is so often found woven throughout black magick.

Examples - How This Plays Out In Practice

• Qlipothic Chains - a tethering system of invisible energetic links designed to bind people into energetic submission; creating subtle but powerful compliance loops

• Mantras -repeated phrases that layer intention into the field, bypassing logic and embedding control; not used for empowerment, but to override will and implant spiritual agreements.

• Astral whispers in dream space or meditation - subtle energetic suggestions that sounded like intuition but instead create longing, craving, or guilt

• Energetic architecture that mirrored Qlipothic descent - not as a personal rite but as a group mechanism to extract devotion, compliance, and psychic access.

I was shown these through visceral, embodied experiences. I could feel the energetic “chains” tightening in the field after being shown a ritual. I watched others become disoriented, hyper-attached, or psychically fogged, convinced it was their shadow coming up - when in truth, it was spell architecture being reinforced.

How Black Magick Distorts Spiritual Law

Black magick doesn’t operate in chaos - it thrives on inverting spiritual law - by subtly warping what is sacred.

Examples:

• Sacred law of consent is replaced with illusion - You’re led to believe you’ve agreed - through mantras, soul contract language, or “remembering” - but there was no real choice. Only energetic coercion masked as destiny.

• Sacred timing is replaced with entrapment cycles - Instead of trusting organic evolution, you’re looped into rituals or energetic bindings that keep you “working the process” indefinitely - never quite free, never quite whole, but always promised you’re almost there.

• Law of Reflection is replaced with gaslighting - Your intuition is reframed as “ego”, your boundaries as resistance or “wounding”, and your clarity as “projection” - so that you doubt yourself and default to their version of truth.

• Divine Will is replaced with manufactured fate - Instead of surrendering to Source, you’re funneled into a scripted path - crafted by someone else’s agenda but masked as your soul’s mission. Free will is bypassed under the illusion of sacred inevitability.

• Initiation is replaced with control - what is presented as a rite of transformation is actually a rite of binding - designed to siphon your energy or block you, not awaken your power.

Why It Hooks So Deeply

Because it mirrors real shadow work just enough to confuse you.

You think you’re facing your shadow.

You think you’re healing.

You think this discomfort means you’re being initiated.

But in reality?

You’re being energetically manipulated.

You’re being spiritually tethered under the guise of transformation.

You’re giving consent without knowing it - because the architecture is designed that way.

And once you’re inside it, you begin to override your instincts.

You start to doubt yourself in the name of growth.

That’s not healing.

That’s spellwork that feeds on confusion, craving, and shame.

Let’s Name It Clearly

This isn’t the sacred descent into shadow or Qlipoth.

This is the strategic use of spiritual mechanics to entrap.

It’s not about owning your darkness.

It’s about someone else controlling the terrain of your soul - while convincing you it’s your own path.

The Qlipoth, like any archetypal map, can be approached with clarity, devotion, and consent.

But when its weaponized?

It becomes a psychic prison disguised as a temple.

The Core Distinction: Consent & Sovereignty

The true line between light and dark magick is consent. Light magick honors your will. It may challenge you. It may bring you to your knees with growth - but it never overrides your sovereignty. It moves with divine timing - not force.

Black magick however, overrides your will. It operates off of fear, seduction, confusion, glamour, or authority to coerce alignment. It bends reality to the will of the practitioner, regardless of the soul contract or true consent of the other.

In other words light magick liberates. Dark magick entraps.

Black magick is willful violation of spiritual law - especially the law of consent. And no matter how beautiful, enticing, or promising it may seem, if it binds you instead of freeing you, it is never light.

It often works much more subtly than you might expect through tactics such as:

• Energetic tethering (cords, bindings, glamour)

• Astral manipulation (dream invasion, watchers, etheric interference)

• Sexual energy siphoning (often masked as intimacy or healing)

• False soul contracts (initiations, vows, pacts made under duress or illusion, often without full conscious awareness)

• Trauma bonding (bonding through shared wound or crisis, then controlling access to safety or love)

• Mirror mimicry (reflecting your gifts or wounds back to you, then weaponizing them)

• Power inversion (you’re told your instincts are ego; your clarity is projection)

It Works Because It Hooks The Wound

Black magick feeds on unhealed pain:

• Your longing to belong

• Your hunger to be chosen

• Your desire to serve

• Your fear of abandonment

• Your rejection trauma

• Your self-doubt

• Your dreams of success

A skilled manipulator doesn’t create the wound - they simply exploit it. Light magick heals the inner child. Dark magick hooks it.

How to Know You’ve Been Touched By It

You might feel:

• Emotionally fused to someone, even if you consciously know they are harming you

• Fearful of “leaving” a group or teacher, as if you’ll spiritually regress or be cursed

• Psychically fogged, disconnected from your own inner knowing

• Drained or confused after interactions

• Addicted to approval or “love” that comes with strings

• Spiritually unsafe in your own space, dreams, or altar

If you in any way feel split from your own truth, or not in touch with your normally astute intuition, this may be why.

Tools of the Trade - How It All Works

1. Astral Work, Astral Tagging, Energetic Tethering, & Watchers: The Unseen Surveillance State

This layer rarely gets named but is critical:

Shadow magick workers often access your field during sleep or meditation, watching, planting, siphoning energy, and influencing your dreams.

Watchers are astral entities sent to observe or influence - not protect. This isn’t simply “checking in” and monitoring you - it is energetic trespassing, often disguised as connection, protection, or spiritual authority. These are cords that you never consented to - often created through group work, shared “healing” rituals, sex magick, trauma bonding, soul contract invocations, or emotional fusion. They create a feedback loop where your energy can be accessed, especially when you’re vulnerable.

Examples of How This May Be Used:

• Ideas, images, or feelings may be implanted in your dreams to create doubt or longing; whatever suits the narrative they want to see in the physical

• Your energy may be monitored for ‘weak spots’ - especially after trauma, expansion, or vulnerable sharing sessions

• They may insert themselves during ritual you perform for yourself, feeding off your focus and spiritual openness

Spirits, familiars, or servitors may be assigned to “watch over” or even “police” your energy. You may notice:

• Feeling “watched” during sacred work

• Candles flickering with no draft

• Sudden emotional shifts that are not your own

• Erotic dreams with the wrong energetic feel

• Feeling “tugged” back into connection after cutting cords

• Disorientation

• Flickering lights or a cold breeze when meditating, doing any ritual or divination work, etc.

• Physical discomfort - energetically drained, sexually confused, brain fog, agitation or anxiety, upset stomach or other obscure somatic changes

• You may feel like you “see” things - energetic eyes watching you, an observer in your dream space, forms or shadows peripherally, etc.

• Interference with your intuitive clarity or sudden dread before speaking truth

These watchers aren’t protective of you - they are enforcers of an invisible energetic contract created to control you.

They keep you on the hook - through guilt, confusion, craving, or psychic interference. It is also a way to monitor your energy for shifts or keep tabs on you - always attempting to be one step ahead and strengthening spellwork if their grasp is slipping, etc. At the end of the day, this is a form of astral vampirism- feasting on your energy while whispering that they are helping you grow.

2. Glamour Magick & False Persona - The Illusion You Didn’t Consent To

Glamour magick is not about beauty - its about projection.

It doesn’t actually make someone more divine it simply makes you see them as such through a filter of intentionally crafted illusion. It makes you look like what someone else is desperate to see - a healer, a lover, a savior, a god.

Here’s how it works:

It reflects your deepest desires - what you truly want most (safety, love, purpose) - back to you like a mirror….creating spiritual seduction.

It energetically creates a sense of divine familiarity: “We’ve known each other for lifetimes….” “This is your soulmate, your guru, your destiny”

It loops your nervous system into dependency (fawn/freeze cycles) by giving you a hit of belonging and then threatening withdrawal if you pull away. “I can’t leave them - I owe them everything.”

You feel chosen. Safe. Seen.

“They see me. They know me. This connected must be fated.”

But in truth?

You’re falling in love with your own essence - just mirrored back to you through their mask.

3. Pacts & Ritual Coercion - The Silent Agreements That Bind

You don’t need to sign a document to be under a pact.

Pacts are formed when you unconsciously agree to believe, obey, or belong.

Even silently thinking:

“She knows more than me.”

“I’ll lose everything if I leave.”

“This is my soul contract.”

These thoughts, combined with energetic reinforcement (often ritual or astral work), bind you.

Even well-meaning group meditations, healing circles, and rituals can be manipulated to embed cords and control.

And, once you’re in…you own subconscious will keep you bound, even as your soul screams to get out.

You may not even realize what you agreed to until your life starts unraveling - or you try to walk away and feel psychically pulled back.

How You Might See This Play Out:

• Creating a “shared mission” that becomes an unspoken soul pact

• Channeling message that position them as your spiritual gatekeeper or interpreter

• Using group rituals to anchor cords - without participants fully knowing what they are agreeing to.

You likely didn’t sign a physical contract - but your energetic consent was manipulated through language like:

“We’re soul family”

“This is part of your purpose”

“I’m helping you remember”

4. Sex Magick & Energetic Seduction- The Unexpected Energy Drain

Sexual energy is sacred. It is life force itself.

But in dark hands, it becomes a weapon.

In sacred tradition, it can heal, bond, awaken, and align,

In distorted form, it can bind, seduce, confuse, and control.

Because sexual energy bypasses logic and speaks directly to the subconscious, it becomes a gateway for manipulation.

During heightened arousal or emotional vulnerability, we become:

• More open

• More suggestible

• More psychically porous

And that makes us prime for:

• Cord creation

• Energetic suggestion

• False bonding

• Soul mimicry

Here’s how it may be used in distorted form:

• Used to tether you through sacral cords; or hook through shame, desire, or unhealed longing

• Used to cast, amplify, and feed the practitioner’s glamour field so others fall under their spell and they appear more desirable, magnetic, and irresistable

• Used to loop your heart and root so that your sense of safety, desire, and love become externally controlled

• Creating psychic dependence - so your nervous system learns to seek approval from the creator

• Bind someone to a group or teacher through nervous system oxytocin/dopamine loops

• Implant beliefs or dependencies during vulnerable or altered states

• Send sensual dream energy to fabricate a soul bond or mimic a connection; creating illusionary intimacy

• Feed off arousal or confusion creating a feedback loop that tethers, disempowers, and weakens clarity

This is misuse of the sacred feminine in distorted form.

It is manipulated seduction.

It is spiritual abuse.

And no one is talking about it.

And here is the important part to understand if you are new to all of this - you do not need to have any physical contact or romantic intention for this to work.

It can all be done energetically, remotely, and very subtly - catching you off guard.

It happened to me.

I watched this play out energetically in myself and others within the group. The seduction was disguised as safety. The person leading it knew how to identify and prey upon trauma patterns - especially those involving abandonment, invisibility, and the desire for connection.

What they don’t tell you about distorted sexual energy:

• It bypasses the logic. It lowers the guard of your conscious mind and directly transmits emotion and intention to the subconscious. You can feel connected to someone harming you and confuse it for love, karma, or fate.

• It creates obsession chemistry - emotional highs followed by lows, guilt, confusion. Also mimicking trauma chemistry.

• It rewires your nervous system to equate abuse with attachment.

• It strengthens energetic bonds through dopamine, oxytocin, and psychic imprinting.

• Because many people have wounding, longing, or repression tied to sex - it becomes a highly charged, easily exploitable force.

And, for a narcissist or manipulator, this cycle of intensity and depletion is exactly what they crave and thrive off of.

Red flags you may be bound through seduction:

• You feel drained, confused, or even ashamed after interactions - even though they seem nurturing or “loving”

• You second guess yourself constantly around them

• You feel a sexual or romantic pull towards someone you don’t actually want - but you can’t stop thinking about them.

• You’ve been told they are your “twin flame” or soul teacher, but it feels twisted or one sided.

• They may use spiritual language like “divine feminine”, “tantric embodiment”, “kundalini activation” - but the energy feels off, heavy, overly intimate, or invasive.

• In women this energy can actually show up as disempowerment in your own sacral or womb space - you may question your desirability, intuition, or magick.

5. Mirror Hijacking, Energetic Mimicry - Identity Theft

This tactic creates false resonance. They don’t actually embody your energy- they mimic it just enough to appear familiar.

It’s both glamour and theft.

Here’s how it works:

• You begin to notice your words or tone “echoed” publicly by them - your insights, style, even your cadence reflected back at you.

• If you’re empathic or psychically sensitive, you may feel them trying to access your field.

• They may energetically mimic someone you trust - a person you’re bonded to, a soul connection - so they can trick your intuition into letting them in.

This is particularly dangerous because:

• It can cause confusion in your intuitive signals

• It can create emotional or psychic misfires, making you question your true connections

• It may be used to replace or discredit your spiritual allies by impersonating them in dream space, energetic work, or spiritual downloads.

In short?

It’s not real connection.

It is a hijack of your energetic signature - twisted to suit their agenda.

6. False Oracle/Divination Manipulation

This form of manipulation builds trust while undermining you.

It looks like accurate messages, spiritual guidance, or psychic insight - but its all laced with control.

They may:

• Deliver messages that feel true, but subtly push fear, guilt, or dependency

• Use their spiritual authority to implant limiting beliefs and control narratives (ie. “This pain is karmic”, “You’re not ready to leave yet” etc)

• Tap into your field without consent during readings - then reflect it back as if its divine guidance, when in fact it’s your own energy being distorted

This erodes trust in your own channel.

It trains you to look to them instead of your own inner knowing.

If your “spiritual guidance” ever becomes wrapped in fear, disempowerment, or the idea that you “can’t” do something without them - it’s not guidance. it’s manipulation.

If This Resonates

If reading any of this was disturbing to you, know you are not alone. These realizations not only shocked me, but they stirred deep grief, betrayal, rage, and brokenness.

But, once I began to understand the patterns, the spell broke.

That is exactly how black magick is dismantled:

Through clarity.

Through language.

Through seeing what was hidden.

Because unless you want to live at the mercy of someone else’s shadow, sick game, or soul agenda, you must reclaim your conscious will.

You are not here to be enslaved.

You are not here to be confused, coerced, or fed upon.

You are here to live autonomously, awake, and sovereign.

And let there be no doubt -

If you do not confront this,

you will become complicit in your own energetic imprisonment.

The longer you stay under this kind of magick:

• The deeper the cords root

• The more your own truth erodes

• The duller your intuition becomes

• The heavier your self-doubt grows

• The more your identity is distorted - & reshaped by someone' else’s shadow

Eventually, your nervous system wires itself to believe:

Real love = danger

Safety = complacency

Belonging = surrendering your power

That is not safety.

It is theft, betrayal, and lies.

And it will lead to a silent death of your soul.

The Antidote Is Not More Protection Spells - It’s Embodied Sovereignty

Protection rituals have their place - but they cannot save you from what you continue to energetically permit.

You break black magick through:

• Embodied clarity

• Naming what’s happening

• Exercising your will

• Speaking the truth

• Establishing energetic and relational boundaries

• Reconnecting to your inner compass - your intuition

You don’t need to be perfect.

You need to be present and awake.

And you need to trust yourself again.

Because your clarity will dismantle the illusion.

My Story. My Turning Point.

Everything I’ve shared, I experienced or witnessed in the group I was once a part of. These are just a few of the black magick tactics I have identified. I am sure there are likely others beyond what I’ve described here, that were at play.

And to be clear - it was covert. Cloaked.

I didn’t know this person was practicing anything dark. Had I known, I would have never studied with her.

She is highly trained in astral and energetic work. Which made this much harder to spot - and even harder to untangle.

But now? I see clearly.

What she took from me can be reclaimed.

She holds no power over me.

Because now, my eyes are wide open. My field is sealed. My truth is alive.

Compassion With Boundaries

There is a very real part of me that holds deep compassion for this person. I see the wounded inner child behind her mask. I see the walls of protection she has built from these shadows. And I sense all of the false promises of greatness, healing, and fulfillment she has been sold to persuade her along this path.

And these are the parts I can hold with love. To genuinely wish her healing.

For the love she never received and so greatly deserves.

For the truth - the inner knowing that all the power and worth she seeks outside herself is already held within her.

For the reflection in recognizing she is wildly gifted and beautiful on her own, inherent merit.

I see the desire for love, safety, and validation that are twisted into manipulation and control.

She deserves wholeness, true love, and joy in her life -and, with every bone in my body, I truly do hope that she finds them.

But this is no longer mine to carry.

For too long this has been my pattern - to over-give, over-fix, and over-help. To carry responsibility that was never mine to shoulder.

Compassion does not require sacrifice.

Empathy does not mean enabling.

I can love from afar - within the container it belongs.

Not as something I carry.

As something I witness and release.

You Can Too

If you have ever been caught in something like this, I want you to know.

You can heal.

You can reclaim what was lost.

You can walk forward more sovereign than ever before.

But, you must choose.

Because if you don’t - if you let this fester - if you let the shame win, if you let the fear sit unchallenged, or give power to the tiny part of you still holding out for the hope this wasn’t illusion, you’re not just abandoning yourself.

You are empowering the very person who has already taken too much.

Reclaim your radiance.

Reclaim your voice.

Reclaim your soul.

A new chapter is waiting ahead for you.

And you are more ready than you think.

I can’t wait to watch this unfold for you,

Seraph

When Spiritual Power Becomes Control: A Story Of Spellwork, Silencing, & Sovereignty

Sovereign Path Series - Prologue: Overview

There is nothing more whole than a heart that has been broken open by truth. - Rumi

Let’s be clear.

This isn’t just about drama or hurt feelings.

This is about spiritual manipulation - the kind that hides in plain sight behind soothing words and performative wisdom.

The kind that wears the mask of mentorship but feeds on power and dependency.

Distorted leadership and twisted teachings that prey on trauma rather than truly heal it.

I discovered something I wasn’t intended to see on the Scorpio Full Moon.

Something that at first I thought couldn’t possibly be true.

Something that once I saw, I could not unsee.

My spiritual teacher deeply, intentionally manipulating others to rob, distort, and cast illusion for a false sense of power and control.

For a long time, I didn’t want to believe what I was seeing.

Because it meant acknowledging that someone I once trusted - that I sincerely believed was a friend and had even invited to vacation and stay with my family - was actively using their power to control, confuse, hurt, and divide.

And the damage? It ran deep.

A gross misuse of power. Betrayal. Creating opposition, energetic depletion, physical ailments, and deep wounding.

And, in some cases, altering life trajectories, gift expansion, and relationships.

The Pattern: Charm, Control, Collapse

She cloaked herself in goddess-like energy, but behind the scenes, it was all strategy:

• Find your vulnerability

• Mirror your pain

• Tether onto your deepest wounds and insecurities, masquerading as the “ideal” antidote

• Offering healing in exchange for loyalty

• And if you don’t comply?

  Erase. Smear. Attack. Distort. Discredit. Deplete.

This is narcissism in spiritual clothing - using divine language to disarm, then dominate.

People called it community and initially it truly felt that way.

But in reality, it was curated hierarchy,

And when someone shined too brightly - or threatened to step out of line in any meaningful way - the web tightened.

That’s what happened to me.

I was watched.

Talked about.

Lied to and lied about.

And when I started forming deeper connections that weren’t part of her plan - that somehow threatened her power and plans to misuse our gifts to grow her community- they were cut at the root through glamour magic, emotional triangulation, energetic manipulation through reiki and spellwork, and group manipulation behind the scenes.

Spiritual Warfare Is Real - and It Doesn’t Always Look Like What You Expect

This wasn’t just emotional.

This was energetic.

This was very real spellwork with intention - the kind that distorts perception, entangles clarity, and turns people against their own intuition.

I know what it feels like to be gaslit psychically.

To have your life path invaded.

To feel your own energy being used against you.

And what’s worse?

When others see the control, but say nothing because they are either afraid they will be next, fear rejection, or don’t want to be embroiled in the “drama”.

This is the dark side of spiritual communities that no one wants to talk about:

• Where “peace” is used to silence.

• Where “light” and distortion - that is intentionally crafted to play on your own wounds and insecurities - is used to blind.

• Where gaslighting and spiritual bypassing protects the abuser and shames the truth-teller.

What It Took To Leave

When I saw the truth in full - the manipulation and underlying magic - I couldn't unsee it.

At first, I wasn't sure how to move.

The fixer in me rose up. The protector. The sacred rage. The part of me who once believed that if I just showed enough care or clarity, people would understand.

I kept asking: How could I possibly walk away from friends I cared about, when I could see they were caught in something they couldn’t yet name?

But the deeper truth was: they had to see it on their own.

They were being called to reclaim that truth in a way only their soul could lead them to.

So I made a choice - one of the hardest spiritual decisions I’ve ever made or felt equipped to fully make.

To walk away in silence.

Not out of fear, or any inkling of not wanting to get involved, but ultimately out of respect.

Respect for each of our own sovereignty, life path, and individual discoveries and lessons.

To fully trust in the outcome I was shown and to stop pouring energy into a battle of distortion that wasn’t mine to fix.

I began quietly reducing engagement. I held energetic support for the truth and for each person in the group, excluding the triad of those involved at the top.

Twelve cord cuttings.

Not in anger - but in deep spiritual reverence.

Clearing entanglements. Releasing attachments. Weakening the dark magic that lie at the undercurrents of the spellwork and psychic spying being used.

Honoring connection without rescuing.

Then I erased every trace of my presence in the group and private text with the leader. Not to disappear, but to prevent my words, memories, and shares from being twisted and used.

That’s when the real attacks began.

Daily.

Sometimes multiple times a day.

Relentless.

It was my first real exposure to spiritual warfare - and I had a steep learning curve.

At one point, I faltered. I let emotion reopen a door I’d sealed shut. And I felt the energetic blowback immediately. That was the final lesson.

And so I left. Quietly. Completely.

Not with bitterness - but with a fierce trust in divine timing.

Knowing that the truth would reveal itself in the right way, at the right time, to all who needed to see it.

But even then, the smear campaign grew louder.

The lies and twisted truths multiplied.

I don’t know every word that was spoken - and honestly, I’m grateful.

But I know enough to say this with certainty:

This was unprovoked warfare.

And its roots were power. Control. Fear.

Fear of being exposed. Fear of losing image. Fear of losing control. Ultimately, fear of losing money.

And let’s be very clear -

This isn’t about one person being manipulated.

It is about a systemic pattern of spiritual abuse.

One I’m certain began long before I arrived in the group….and may very well continue unless truly seen and recognized for what it really is.

At the core of it?

Narcissism.

Unhealed Wounding.

Jealousy.

Spiritual bypassing.

The kind where charm masks control.

Where “healing” and the level of “teaching” you allow others becomes hierarchy.

Where power feeds on praise and insecurity and hollow praise becomes currency.

It’s a toxic loop.

And when it’s cloaked in spiritual language and a false sense of security within a teacher-student relationship, it is far more dangerous.

Because it seduces the seeker - and silences the truth-teller.

What This Really Is: A Return to Power

This isn’t just my story.

It is a collective wound resurfacing: the distortion of feminine power, cloaked in control, envy, and quiet manipulation.

It echoes the sisterhood wound.

The witch wound.

Where sacred circles fracture under the weight of shadow - and the distorted narrative is propelled at all costs - even if it means there is a scapegoat so that another can preserve her illusion of power.

This isn’t personal.

It’s ancestral.

And, it’s time we name it.

But something is shifting.

Truth is rising.

The spells are breaking - not because we fought back, but because we refused to stay silent.

There is a sacred kind of rage that purifies.

There is a clarity that cuts cords.

And there is a voice that, once claimed, can never be caged again.

Mine has returned.

Maybe yours is rising too.

And that is the unexpected gift that comes after the fire.

To Those Still Healing

I’m not here to convince anyone.

I’m not here to smear, point fingers, or cast blame.

I’m here to affirm what you already know deep in your bones:

• You can trust again

• You weren’t crazy

• You were never the problem

• You became a mirror too clear for someone still hiding from their own shadow

• You weren't difficult - you we're uncontainable, and that was never part of their plan

Truth doesn’t need approval.

True healing doesn't bypass shadow.

It walks straight through the darkest parts - torch in hand.

If these words stir something within you - whether that be grief, rage, or relief - you are not alone.

Truth is not always comfortable, but it is always clarifying.

May your body be a safe place for this knowing to live and land.

And to those of you who are still unsure, who feel something is off but can’t yet name it - I honor your journey.

Awakening is often not a lightening strike, but a slow, aching thaw.

May you trust the quiet wisdom in your gut.

May you know that when you are ready, truth will not abandon you.

This is my story. It is my truth. This was the wild, unexpected, initiatory event in my own Chiron Return.

I do not speak to be believed or validated. I speak to be free and to never forget what this lesson has taught me.

Truth, once voiced, becomes a lifeline - not just for me, but for anyone waking up from illusion.

Let this post be a flame. May it burn away illusion, and light the path back home - to truth, to integrity, to sacred remembrance - for us all.

Together, we rise - not in competition, but in reclamation.

For true feminine fire is bold.

She is radiant, unwavering, and unapologetically whole.

She does not chase. She does not shrink. She does not silence truth to soothe ego.

Let the full truth surface.

Let what was hidden be seen.

And may what is seen be fully healed - at last.

More soon.

The path forward has only just begun.